I am the child of a sadistic, narcissistic, evil woman, so this is a day of painful emotions.
I am sad that I still play the pretend game and will call her later today to wish her a happy Mother’s Day. I will try to keep the conversation short as is always hard because she runs right over me with her words about herself, never listening to me.
But, I’ll get through this day.
My beautiful children will help. Their loving, smiling faces make life worth living. We are so lucky to have children who are the most beautiful angels it takes my breath away.
It amazes me that it didn’t take any special effort to not continue the cycle of abuse so many people talk about. It is natural to love and take care of your babies, which makes it harder to understand the actions of my parents.
I love my children more than anything else in this world. There is nothing I wouldn’t do for them.
I wish all moms could feel that way.
I am sorry for those of you who had moms like mine.
I am happy for those of you who are amazing moms, and also for those who were lucky enough to have a great mom.
A day of ambivalence. I will lean toward love. I hope you can, too.